All by Myself

No one has to tell me I am mot perfect. I have made plenty of mistakes in my life, and I have hurt many people as well. I have used my own self doubt and my fear of commitment to keep people at bay. I have ruined relationships I thought would never end because of fear. Fear that, that person would just eventually leave me anyway. I have been hurt so much in my life, and I have found that those I thought would fight for me, did not. I was in love once, in so deep of love it was as if I was lost; however I was going through so much at that time that I just needed her to fight for us. I tried to fight , but I found that I was fighting alone. I was struggling with so much and still tried to fight for her, but as she said in her own words"we were never good together". How can someone claim you are their soul mate, and say they love you and not fight for you. How can you not think your whole relationship was a lie if she says these words, "we were never good together".

People ask me why I am so cold, and why I tend to push people away. It is because I let someone in my heart, finally, and she tore it apart. I trusted someone and relied on another human being , and it came around to destroy me. I'm not sure how I can let anyone in again, because they are just going to leave me.

I think  I'm meant to be alone
I think  I'm meant to be alone
All by myself

I had a girl I loved she many the world to me
I wanted to marry her (are you sure) as sure as I could be
After a year we broke up
One minute passed and I felt instant regret
And she wouldn't take me back
And now I walk around like im the one to blame
I feel insane sometimes as I drink to forget her name
I want to die sometimes because I don't want to feel the pain let me explain why

I think I'm meant to be alone
I think I'm meant to be alone
All by myself

I was going through some issues in my head
And every night I would drink myself to bed
And it was a struggle everyday not to cut myself
And I put trying to find an escape right above my health
And here's this girl Meghan was her name
I was going crazy but she kept me sane
But I was going crazy she could do better than me
It's only a matter of time too before she leaves
And everyone leaves me and I'm left to bleed
And I'm curled up on the floor while to God I plead
For Him to stop this hurt that is tearing my heart
And I can't breathe my soul is tearing apart
I'm ugly I'm fat I'm stupid I'm worthless
I have no future my life has no purpose
People don't love me it's impossible to like me
I let my demons  win every time they fight me
And your family don't like me and Rightly so
I bet your friends didn't know how you could stoop so low
To date some like me and so I gave you mercy
And let you go even though it hurt me
I just thought I wasn't good enough for you
And judging by your response I guess you thought that to
After you said were soul mates everyday and night to me
I just thought you would've been the one to fight me for

I think I'm meant to be alone
I think I'm meant to be alone
All by myself

I'm sorry I let you down you were right I wasn't good enough
I rushed into this you made me blush and so I made a fuss
Over you and soon my heart it started bleeding through
I could not in a million years picture me leaving you Cut scene 2
now it's 4 years later and we don't even talk no more
Why beat at these punching bags seems that what my heart is for
Stitched up poorly after my heart you tore
I can not melt for anyone anymore with such a hardened core that's why

I think I'm meant to be alone
I think I'm meant to be alone
All by myself