Crazy Love (HER)

I wish I didn't love her but I do
I wish I didn't love her but I do
I wish I didn't still dream about her
I wish I didn't still think about kissing her
I wish I didn't still think about hugging her
I wish I didn't still think about her warmth
I wish I didn't still think about how happy she made me
I wish I didn't still hope one day she would forgive me
I wish I didn't still pray that I could hug her again
I wish I didn't still pray I could talk to her again
I wish I didn’t still pray I could hold her again
I wish she didn't still have my heart
I wish I could love someone else but I can't
No one makes me feel the way that she does
And I have discovered just how happy she made me
The connection that we had is unmatched by anyone
I wish I didn't still dream about her
I wish I didn't still cry over losing her
I wish I could be with her again
I wish she would love me to
I wish she would miss me to
I wish she would talk to me again
I wish, I wish she would let me hold her again
I wish I didn't have all these feelings but I do
I do have them and wishing won't make them go away
I love her and only her I just wish she loved me to
I once heard that loving someone who doesn't love you back is like hugging a cactus
The tighter you hold on the more that is hurts
Well I say that imagery isn't strong enough to depict the torture
That my soul is going through whenever I think about her
HER, Her, who every time I think about her I go through about 5 million emotions
Building up in this body of mine
Which doesn't seem big enough to contain the over flow of emotions
Which is about to make me explode into a pile of pathetic and heartbroken Pieces
 All etched with the stoning of her name which seems tattooed to my very heart
As permanent as a birth mark I just can't seem to control these feelings of mine
But people say don't worry in time everything will be fine
Ha-ha time, time tells me to wait but my heart says I can't
Because every second, minute, hour, Day that passes the pain grows
To appoint where I feel I just can't make it so you say time will help
Well I say time is making it worse and I don't know if I can make it another day
I don't know if it will just become too much for me to handle
 I once thought about taking a blade and burning the sharpened edge and putting it to my chest
Cutting my flesh away so I can get rid of the heart of mine
Which only seems to be causing me troubles anyway
My Goodness I'm not sure if time is on my side in the case
Her oh I love her. Her kiss and her hug and her laugh and her voice and her eyes
And her skin and her laughter and her kindness, her talent and her sensitivity,
Her soul and the way she looks at me
The way she says my name and the way no other her in this world
Seems to compare to the her, that I cannot get out of my mind
Her who I can see myself spending the rest of my life with
And growing old with / her who I love with all my heart
And all my soul who understands me like no one has understood me before
Her who I am so proud of and wish her the best and all the happiness
 Even if it is not with me
 Yes I love her because she means more to me than I do to myself
I would struggle the rest of my life if it meant that she would be happy
Her Her Her Her who I so deeply love and her who does not love me back!
I once heard that loving someone is like hugging a cactus the tighter you hold on the more it hurts well I say that imagery just isn't strong enough!!!!